Taken aback SOME

Jack, I did catch the message you look like Johnny Cash too and I get some of the acknowledgement. ;) A little lost and confused and I'm sorry for the way I can be an ass with you both, Jack and Travis. ... I at least got some of my thoughts and feelings out there. Although I still feel a little led on, (and by you both), I also feel like I could be getting insulted or hated. I'm not sure how much of it is your anger or sincerity speaking. "Ultimate painting" main reference. ... I honestly think you both could be bisexual, but I wouldn't believe either are fully gay, but I could question whether more gay than homosexual... I think the both are more homosexual...If you wanted to go there with my aunt lisa, it isn't a good thing. I know I've been compared to her, and I also know what an ugly, mean, unfair, and subjective woman she was with me. I think a lot of it was mostly her freaking out over me with Bob's crush on me, but freaky Bob did betray me with her. I wouldn't think Bill or Bob are the same. Lisa is mostly known for her rants on "trannys" and I'm still offended to this day with the way it came from her. Maybe you guys are wanting to cheer for me with the way I was pushing Paris back, and I don't like the way she looked like me some either. She is another overly-entitled gross conquestial vain psycho. Anyway, I'm not entirely sure the way you guys mean to come across with me. Jack hated my "morning glory"? I just don't get it... You both could "have the same idea," when it comes to me. .... mmmm uh oh not exactly sure what your precisions are with "we both get what it is." If there were any last words, I'd say I really think that Jack has the most integrity and has already proven and made his point of integrity with the musical pictures he drew. Jack has come on to me other than that, so it's not me just chasing a sign to show. When Travis initially came, he came from David, and I know he was being protective against David for me in some ways after a certain period of time. Although some signs show Travis being compared to Jon and Travis making some of his own mistakes, he tries to break outside of David's mold and be his personal self. .... I don't know where you guys are wanting to go in your own present points. I don't know what you're after or who you want the most. I just don't like the way I felt further pushed to compromise myself with the large unknown with Travis. I know I don't completely trust or know him, and I didn't like the pressure I felt. ... I really don't know much else to say from this point. pushing being pushed, pulling being pulled, and waiting....