Turret's attacker

I hate you for not owning up to yourself and you wanting to make me feel like I am to blame. Your dumb for having your "planned attacks" (I didn't read the article on that either). You're the reason for your cycle and your problems. DID YOU REALLY THINK I WAS GOING TO KEEP PUTTING UP WITH YOUR JUGGARNAUT ABUSE? DID YOU REALLY THINK I WAS GOING TO LAY MY LIFE DOWN FOR YOUR JUGGARNAUT AND JUST SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOUR PSYCHO BASTARD PIG ASS? I know you'll probably plan another attack after Denzel, BUT WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO DO WITH THE MORON YOU ARE AND THE WAY YOU ALWAYS REPEAT YOUR SAME COLD BLOODED PIGGISH PATTERN? I hate your guts for the times you become such a cold blooded pig with me. Whatever you're freaking out over and lose your cool over DON'T YOU DARE EXPECT ME TO SUCK IT OR TAKE IT OR BE AT YOUR MERCY WHEN I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE AND THERE IS NOTHING FAIR ABOUT YOU. Do you really mean it when you say you really do love me and don't mean your cold blooded comments? Why do you keep repeating some of your same patterns? I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE GETTING AT WITH ANYTHING AND IT IS SO COLD TO KEEP ME PLAYED WITH GILLIAN. I HAVE BEEN PAST THE POINT OF BEING PLAYED AND FINISHED WITH YOUR GAMES YET YOU STILL WANT TO KEEP FORCING ME TO BE SOMETHING WITH YOU. You're a bunch of clutter and don't have anything clear AND I KNOW I'M NOT GIVING INTO ANY OF YOUR GAMES AND GAMING. ............... Right now, it looks like John Atchison is being made to blame with keeping me "buried alive in dirt" over a different Sam, but the pieces of the puzzle aren't obvious enough. He is such a sick minded idiot who continues to refuse to take a hint in the worst way and keeps giving himself any and every credit. He LIES TO MY FACE ABOUT HOW MUCH "I'M INTO HIM" IN THE MOST INSANE HATEFULLY PROVOKING WAY. And of course John's childish sadist is always going to be running around somewhere, hateful stalker who has no point. DO YOU SERIOUSLY MEAN TO POISON ME WITH YOU IDENTIFYING YOURSELF AS SAM AND GIVING YOURSELF THE CREDIT TO SOME OF THE HARASSING COMMENTS HE MAKES? One minute you don't say you mean anything, the next you intentionally want to come across as wanting to murder or rape me for Stacy or Paris? You're only going to keep forcing me into Denzel more. Then you want to make love and not war the next minute, and then it is another Turret's attack from you WHERE YOU COULD ALWAYS WANT REVENGE OVER ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. You don't know how TO DROP THINGS. You make things worse and don't even mean it when you want to be agreeable with "make love not war." You're a turret gamer who is too cold blooded and insensitive. I have no other choice than to keep making a dumb no common sense man out of you with your retarded nerve. I'm sorry if you really do have Turret's syndrome and I shouldn't make fun of you for a disease you can't control.