Sexual Characters

I do feel as if I am buried under a lot of rubble.
I had a conversation last night with someone concerning some rubble, and I think I have a better shot and chance at having a say right now to elaborate what I really think and feel concerning sexual issues.

I have been experiencing a lot of sexual harassment lately. Been experiencing it. There have not been many times where I have felt that I have had a rational conversation.
With a lot of characters, I feel so confused with who some people are really talking to and who people are directing what at.
I think it is sick to be entirely connected to a number of people that I think I am connected to.
Of course I don't see myself as others would, I don't connect the dots as others do.
My anger is against not just sexual harassment but sexual labels as well. The possessive issue is a factor as well.

To generalize all characters:
I deny that I am a prostitute.
I deny that I am a participant of any type of pornography.
I deny that I have ever been paid for any kind of sexual relations.

Yes, I am aware that people watch me BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I HAVE MADE A CHOICE TO GIVE MYSELF TO PORNOGRAPHY OR THAT I AM PERMISSABLE IN LETTING IT HAPPEN. I'M PRETTY PISSED. I FEEL NEGLECTED AND IGNORED WHEN I COMPLAIN ABOUT ISSUES CONCERNING PRIVACY. I HATE SOME OF THE BS GAMES THAT I GET CAUGHT UP IN FROM COMPETITIVE DUMBASSES THAT JUST WANT TO SCREW UP MY LIFE MORE THAT TRY TO TARGET ME AND PROVE HOW WILLING AND PERMISSABLE I AM OF HAVING MY PRIVACY INVADED.

I have had one night stands.
I can dress scandily on occassion, but I consider myself to be neutral in my dressing attire overall.
I have had flings, and semi-relationships.
I do not consider myself in a serious relationship with anyone.
I THINK MOST "RELATIONSHIP" RUMORS GOING ON IN THE MEDIA ARE NOTHING BUT B.S. There is a possibility that I may actually know some people, but I do not see myself anywhere close to how others see me. I think my relationships in the media are lies, cancer, distortions, and exaggerations.
Because I feel so buried under rubble and I am the argumentative type, I find it harder to say the easier defenses: "You don't know me." And I sometimes hate having to say that because some people take it as a challenge "to know me and to define me." I simply don't want some people in my life. I AM NOT ANYONE'S POSSESSION PERIOD.

I really hate that my sex life is so exploited. Because of it, people do not give me the credit for the normal life I have. They don't think about the regular down to earth things I do in my spare time. They don't think of me as a normal person who does normal things.
Because most people really do not account themselves and live to judge others, I am in a more vulnerable position. A lot of people do not like to look in the mirror and acknowledge that they can be promiscious or slutty. They are too busy pointing the finger at someone else who is promiscious or slutty.

So what makes me different when I point the finger at Megan Fox?
SHE DOES USE SEX INITIALLY AS HER WEAPON/PERSUASION TO WIN WHATEVER GOAL IT IS THAT SHE IS SEEKING.
SHE DOES GET PAID TO MAKE SOME MOVIES AND POSE IN SOME PHOTO SHOOTS AS A SEX SYMBOL
IT HAS ALREADY BEEN ARGUED THAT BECAUSE SHE HAS THE PERFECT BODY SHE IS THE "ENLIGHTENING LIGHTBULB" TO TELL OTHER PEOPLE HOW TO SEE. SHE IS THE SEX SYMBOL OF CREATING SEX OBJECTS TO BE HER FOLLOWER OF HARMONY IN BRINGING NURTURE AND WHAT IS "NATURAL," IN BOTH BUSINESS AND RELATIONSHIPS.
SHE IS A HINDERANCE TO INDIVIDUALITY, CONSERVATISM, FREEDOM OF CHOICE, AND FEMINIST JUDGEMENT.

I do set myself apart from Megan Fox. Even when I do not have the perfect body, I am not afraid to go head to head with her. I have never been paid. When I do get a little sexual or promiscious it is usually in the bar scene where it is a place that is meant to let loose and have fun. There is no business agenda about it. I have flings and one night stands for my own fun and extremely punished freedom.
When I apply for jobs, I do not use sex as my weapon or persuasion to get the job. I do not manipulate others to gang up on others to be my follower. I give people their individuality and freedom because I do not believe that suffocating a person of who they are is really necessary for anything.
Depending on where a person is, it does matter what certain boundaries and focuses there should be. Time and place. I am sounding like my dad right now, but I can't argue that he is wrong about it. On the other hand, I am wise enough to know what is appropriate vs. what is more of a loyalty issue.