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Fling fling fling. While a large majority of modern day women hate to take the cliché follow of being desperate, it's just natural to know we want to feel some greater sense of comfort and protection. Flings: you have times you were mistaken with some moments that were just temporary. So last week was another fling and the interest and feeling is gone. I might as well keep talking to you Blackbeard Bollywood. You might be mad at me, but I've got a pass to make at you that may end up being temporary too, but I just want to believe in you. Some women have called "Jesus," their boyfriend but it really isn't the same when I compare you to Christianity some. Like atheists make fun of Christians: "some people just want to have some peace of mind and something to believe in for purpose," I can just temporarily be made fun of with "you are someone I want to believe in and have peace of mind Blackbeard." Mind you, I have never been won with the god complex but maybe you have your seen signs and some sense of logical fears that wants to keep me the way you keep me along with the other numbers who have wanted to keep me the same WAY. I don't want my Bollywood sluttiness to ruin entirely what I have with you, but I think I can handle being made fun of with you are an eloped/imaginary/bollywood husband I want to believe in for my own comfort and peace of mind. I'm back on zoosk and I wished it was an outlet you would kill to care to reach me with in real life but there are still plenty of outlets where I would be just as fine if you met me in person. I have honestly never been in to beards. I wonder if you have cut it off and guised yourself just to wonder what I would think. I remember your actual hair being thick and slicked back. You looked a lot like Don Jr when he had his beard going on. He is an impossible guy who left a bad impression on me. He has a gang banging betrayal that adds to the despairing numbers of gang bang betrayal. While I have technically cheated on him in my real life "poor small woman," I hate that I feel he blinks at me without understanding the damage he has done, the way he had my life threatened, and still has my life threatened to this day WITHOUT RECOGNIZING IT. He wants to put on some kind of front and just be that ignorant towards me. You are someone I want to believe in blackbeard, and I don't want to make you feel too cheated with Jr. It's not always easy being isolated without having much of an ability to vent when I sincerely want to vent about something. (I get Butch tested all of the time, but there are times that I'm in the red more than others when I get tested or see signs). Some times there are some men I just can't ignore. Anyway Blackbeard, I'm tired and going to bed. goodnight hubby. love you too.