Dear Harry

While I don't think you're making too much of a serious move on me (and its ok) I know you're still making a move. I want you to know what I really think of you.... While I won't deny my own personal Canadian pride; I would greatly assume you are too good for me and someone I could never see myself having. I apologize if the little whore that I am is a little too lethal for you. I'm not out to hurt you. I saw the Canadian Andrew as an impossible relationship because of the distance, and I wasn't happy about some of his own mean comments and things I didn't completely pick up on. I was somewhat embarrassed. I could never let myself want to be with you. I've bastardized the whole structure of imperialism and I would compare a lot of imperialism to Braveheart's "Scottish Rite." I do believe some in knights in shining armor, but it isn't their lordship I wouldn't take too far. I do appreciate the heroism and rescue. I'm not quite getting the "Mike," thing either. I think you care about me some, but wouldn't think I have much of a real chance with you.......... More gossip about David. I'm not liking whatever his quiet games with me are. I know he hasn't let me go yet. Him letting go of me would mean: He would stop breaking in my head altogether (he still intentionally leaves me confused in the mind). He would also stop being jealous and possessive of me and giving me a possessive death threat. I still feel like a mistreated slave who is treated with a severe unfairness and I have no sense of equality. I'm still in a rage over the women I think he does put first and before me. He seriously has no business in wanting to stay with me at this point if he isn't going to make me his first AND ONLY. He has no common sense in understanding the rape that he has already committed. I'm thinking it was Amal that he was cheating on me with and in a very backstabbing way. Whether it is Paris or Amal; it is not ok for either to call the shots, feel they are the superior judge, or be the one in control of the relationship. It is ok for no woman. I still think Gillian is the most obvious and while she hasn't done anything too personal against me; I still feel date raped by David for her too. And then, there was the death threat with Stacy. I hate the way David thinks he can beat me with his silent karma and not explaining anything to me, or making me understand anything enough. He is cold-blooded with no common sense in wanting me to stay around and stick it out with him. I feel he is a coward more than anything with the way he leaves me hanging. He wants to wait until I "mess up," with him again to try to put it on me. He won't dump me like he means it. He wished he could put the "bad man," on me and there is still no comparison between him and I. I still call myself the victim to his Stockholm and his captive. I was trying to beat his Don Draper off of me, but I can barely say a word to him at all anymore. I can't break through to his dumb pigheaded skull. I think he will keep playing the same dumb game and if he hasn't learned anything by now, than he will never learn. I believe in his enemy and he is an enemy that I don't understand or know where he came from. I wouldn't mind your help in making his Don Draper get it, and if I ran into more Don Drapers along the way, I wouldn't mind your protection or taking a stroll with you........ I hope you have a nice day Harry.

Despite the friendly gesture

Whoever "Alyssa Bailey" is. reference site: http://www.msn.com/en-us/lifestyle/parenting/the-10-best-things-about-being-close-with-your-dad/ar-BBtKI8f?li=BBnb7Kz Is it that we have the most random people wanting to touch us or interrogate our brains, or is any of the suggestiveness on you? If it was from you; I think it is a friendly gesture in its own right. I could be appreciative of and think that it would be nice of you to want to father my daughter. It really must have been some random crackhead wanting to threaten and fuck with me in the dark with "Sex with Lucia"...... However, I'm not done with my whole "mood kill." There are a lot of things I don't trust about you in the worst way. I wasn't liking the David Cameron sign condoning "division." My mind has been made up with who my enemies are. You're still way too dumb to understand the betraying message you are, a recent betrayal in the head, and the other betrayals you've made in general. I'm not happy at all with the way Stacy stalks me to my face or that there is someone else out there who won't stop fucking with me with Stacy. Some people are such dumb crackheaded and piggish control freaks to keep testing me or thinking that they have anything to prove. Being given a high suspicion that you're not done with hitting me back and wanting to keep me betrayed and raped over her in the worst ways, I'd want to take a bazooka and blast a hole through your body for your continued sick nerve. Gillian really is the main one to be most assumptive of, but you have seemed to be such a male ho with several women. I don't trust you one bit. I'm still not through with being angry over the humiliation of you wanting me to get a boob job. After going through so much with you, I seriously don't know why you ever wanted me to begin with. You seem to be a dime a dozen sadistic and barbaric man pig who had no business in wanting to go for me to begin with. ......despite the friendly gesture......

Turret's attacker

I hate you for not owning up to yourself and you wanting to make me feel like I am to blame. Your dumb for having your "planned attacks" (I didn't read the article on that either). You're the reason for your cycle and your problems. DID YOU REALLY THINK I WAS GOING TO KEEP PUTTING UP WITH YOUR JUGGARNAUT ABUSE? DID YOU REALLY THINK I WAS GOING TO LAY MY LIFE DOWN FOR YOUR JUGGARNAUT AND JUST SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOUR PSYCHO BASTARD PIG ASS? I know you'll probably plan another attack after Denzel, BUT WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO DO WITH THE MORON YOU ARE AND THE WAY YOU ALWAYS REPEAT YOUR SAME COLD BLOODED PIGGISH PATTERN? I hate your guts for the times you become such a cold blooded pig with me. Whatever you're freaking out over and lose your cool over DON'T YOU DARE EXPECT ME TO SUCK IT OR TAKE IT OR BE AT YOUR MERCY WHEN I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE AND THERE IS NOTHING FAIR ABOUT YOU. Do you really mean it when you say you really do love me and don't mean your cold blooded comments? Why do you keep repeating some of your same patterns? I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE GETTING AT WITH ANYTHING AND IT IS SO COLD TO KEEP ME PLAYED WITH GILLIAN. I HAVE BEEN PAST THE POINT OF BEING PLAYED AND FINISHED WITH YOUR GAMES YET YOU STILL WANT TO KEEP FORCING ME TO BE SOMETHING WITH YOU. You're a bunch of clutter and don't have anything clear AND I KNOW I'M NOT GIVING INTO ANY OF YOUR GAMES AND GAMING. ............... Right now, it looks like John Atchison is being made to blame with keeping me "buried alive in dirt" over a different Sam, but the pieces of the puzzle aren't obvious enough. He is such a sick minded idiot who continues to refuse to take a hint in the worst way and keeps giving himself any and every credit. He LIES TO MY FACE ABOUT HOW MUCH "I'M INTO HIM" IN THE MOST INSANE HATEFULLY PROVOKING WAY. And of course John's childish sadist is always going to be running around somewhere, hateful stalker who has no point. DO YOU SERIOUSLY MEAN TO POISON ME WITH YOU IDENTIFYING YOURSELF AS SAM AND GIVING YOURSELF THE CREDIT TO SOME OF THE HARASSING COMMENTS HE MAKES? One minute you don't say you mean anything, the next you intentionally want to come across as wanting to murder or rape me for Stacy or Paris? You're only going to keep forcing me into Denzel more. Then you want to make love and not war the next minute, and then it is another Turret's attack from you WHERE YOU COULD ALWAYS WANT REVENGE OVER ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. You don't know how TO DROP THINGS. You make things worse and don't even mean it when you want to be agreeable with "make love not war." You're a turret gamer who is too cold blooded and insensitive. I have no other choice than to keep making a dumb no common sense man out of you with your retarded nerve. I'm sorry if you really do have Turret's syndrome and I shouldn't make fun of you for a disease you can't control.