Random Thoughts

What a tough past couple of months. It has been very stressful in the dancing world and night life. I am mostly settled at my most recent club and don't think I will be facing anymore hardships. Obsessions was closed, I had tried another, and then another club, and am mostly satisfied at the club I'm at. Business can still be unpredictable but I hope that it picks up more sooner............ I have also mostly finished my craft shows. I definitely had better luck last year than this year. I may do one more by the time the winter/fall season is up. Most shows I go to, it is required that the vendors create their own stuff. There was one vendor that did have some handmade winter accessories, but other accessories were tagged and appeared to be machine made. My little Mexico: they took my job and sold very cheap. They didn't entirely take my job. I still had made some sales. Their hats and scarves were half of my price. I was pretty upset about it. I was also surprised that their weren't many other vendors selling winter accessories. I saw one main other where I was more relieved than taken aback. Besides making their own stuff, they made their own yarn and even had more than the regular winter accessories with sweaters and cardigans. Their sweaters and cardigans were all over $100.00 too. Some of their hats and scarves were around the same price or even higher priced than what I had mine. I was glad that the other vendor understood the value of handcrafted items. Sometimes, I think I should charge more because of the time that it takes to make an item. If my hobby were strictly a job, I'd be more hyper stressed about it, but I've always kept it as a hobby. Most of the vendors were jewelry, candles, or soap at this particular festival with several other random crafters. I was glad to see the expensiveness of the handmade jewelry too. Most vendors do have their stuff reasonably priced for sale.............. Man drama. Do I want to talk about that here? Why not. Everything is up in the air with me. I'm still stuck on David, but won't ever know when I will find the relief of not being in a roller coaster relationship or love affair. I'll just say I know I'm infatuated and have the hots for him, but I'm not sure where any of it will go. On the saddle off the saddle and lost again. ha. I try not to stay too stressed out but when I know something or have my mind set, I just do. Right now, I don't. I'm up in the air with David as my main man that I want the most right now. I have several people I have some interest in, but am not strongly stuck on anyone. There is so much going on and there may come a day where I give into an online dating site, but until I feel better established to be more serious about having a serious man, I keep living every day life until I'm either hit by a strong love or have a more aggressive approach in trying to find a man. I'm not looking and really haven't looked for someone in a long time. I just haven't had the time and am focused on so many different things going on right now. Until then, living my days to the best and living to reduce the stress.