Final Thoughts

I think I'll start with the arbitrage until I go to a particular subject I've dealt with. Someone did break in my head again last night and continued on in his lust while I know I'm being digitally denied in Bollywood and he continues to chase his wife (although I have seen mixed messages) but I have an answer: I still do not want to be played with the wife or soon to be ex wife especially when there is still so much I don't know about him. When a man makes the choice to Stockholm me; he is the one who needs to have something to get at. I refuse to let him put it on me and make me pay a price for what he started. I do not have him entirely denied. I will not be made to feel responsible for his choice..... There is nothing left I can say in regards to him. It looks as if Jared could be taking a dare for me, but I'm not sure what is to believe of him. How much of a truth could he carry with the last arbitrage representative? He may not be trying to mess with my head at all and I have a hard time in believing that he would want to say to me some things that Scott was saying. Jared is a long term friend in his own way that I just didn't keep up with. I would feel in a little bit of terror if he seriously wanted to seduce me. .......... The subject. "Sense of security" While I can be picked at myself for being arrogant or vain on occasion; I have also been picked at with security. Anytime I feel threatened with it, my mind only steers in one direction: conquestial threat. The person who is placing the threat of security over another really is being a vain cut throat. Resistance is futile can be said in many ways, but the thought of giving them a foot is just that: you already know resistance is futile. It is a right from person to person to have their own personal thoughts and opinions, but so many people do not understand their conquestial vain narc actions for what they are. They do not always understand that they insist to be the lead. They do not understand that they mean to undermine or underestimate the other person who many times, they hardly know. The person being threatened in turn, can only be a beggar or forced to fight as if they have something to prove. It is a terrible corner to be forced to be in from time to time. It varies with just how vain and how terrible a person can be. Anytime I feel a threat: I process it as I've described and there are many times I feel intentionally harassed by a neverending narc that will never give up on wanting to be in control. As I've said, people have rights to their opinions, but when they don't understand the rights of the opinions of a person's sense of security that they want to attack, they just don't get how much of a war it is on the other person. With the way I have recently been provoked, I am seriously thinking to myself: Yes I am the smarter, greater, fairer, and better sex. I won't always come right out and say that. I am usually very passive about it because I hate the corner I'm in to begin with. I hate the potential of rape that comes with it with the obvious disagreement. But it happens. It is the reason for a lot of rape and I have been in terror and raped in other ways because men, especially men such as Jon Stewart seriously realize that I gave myself the dominate compliment against their respect. When it is my personal right to feel like I'm too good for some people; it is my personal right to feel like I'm too good for some people. When it has been worth it for me to not fight for anyone because I can't stand the way they want to conquest me, it is my personal right and choice to not fight for it. I wish more people would read in between their lines more and understand what it is they are trying to say and just how much of a fighting word that it is. My cry for help over the issue grows.