As the Sarah Turns: Playing On

I really am stressed over the player I am right now. The world turns, but my world isn't turning enough right now. I'm still mostly stuck on Sidney, but I think I may have another imaginary boyfriend, AND I actually have a real guy I'm talking to in person a little. I'm pretty sure he is his own man for himself, and I don't think he is some messed up intentional Pinocchio for someone else..........lol with my new imaginary boyfriend, as much as I would want to keep him and Sid provoked as Pinocchio: I'm laughing with a squeal because I'm the scared one. Yeah, I'm not sure how much it is every man for himself with both of my imaginary boyfriends... I think imaginary boyfriend 2 wants to be protective of Sidney, but I think he could want to be protective of me too. I think he knows more of what Sidney thinks and he could have been to insulting against me in ways I don't get. I would assume that he would want to be more loyal or protective of Sidney than I, but he is questionable. So, I have a little but of an uncontrollable pant and purr for imaginary boyfriend 2, but I don't know him anymore than I know Sidney. I'm not 100% sure of what their present status' are and what all it is they are doing. .......... The real life guy I am somewhat talking to. We are taking it slow, and I'm sure he has other interests and women to play. I don't have too strong or unfair expectations yet to be on his case of being a player. He's not a Frank so far either. He has a slow and kind respect and I wouldn't want to provoke it.... Like I said, I think this guy is for himself and wouldn't put himself out to put another man out in the arbitrage, but I think it is the arbitrage that wants to use him already. "Jay/Jared," is their code name where 2 of the arbitrage men don't even have Jay or Jared as their real name. I think the newest 2nd imaginary boyfriend has his own extent in the arbitrage of having that name, and I find it to be confusing and wouldn't know how to encode him all. Must be some kind of story there.. It is like he is giving me a message where he is standing closer than what I know... A little more scatterbrained. I have a little bit of a thing for him. I still have a thing for Sidney. This was very stressful to talk about, but I must say it.