Peace Be To Me

I can tell there is a lot of talk going on right now. I feel pretty blind to a lot of things. And, I also feel the same vulnerability and defenselessness that I usually feel. I just can't win. Do I have a real win somewhere for a real reason? ............. I feel I have Jon's attention in some way, but I'm being more expensive for him to reach and try to connect with me in some way. Man fuck his gang raping vainness and narcism. It did feel good to express my out look last night with some of the songs I played with Bon Jovi's and Jonny Lang's "Lie to Me," (of course Jon being the one who needs to be lied to) (I know he probably keeps Shania's "I'm Jealous," and Norah's "Happy Pills," in question). Although I can make my own personal entertainment, I still demand to be taken seriously than to be treated as a watered-down goof off. I can't stand any more of his war, insensitivity, lies, and denial. .................. I must try to keep myself together and hold myself down. Go Mushka, go.