Rahm

I can't see who is controlling the entire media, or the person I'm talking to right now, but I'm going to give the conversation to you anyway....... Rahm, I'll give you a little bit of credit where I know my life is presently not being as violently threatened as it was. Still, there needs to be more changes made. This isn't another contest of change; I'm just sick of the way some people want to sum me up and think they have the problem solved. It was cute with "Judge Joe Brown." While Jon has been responsible for a lot of slavery, rape, stockholms, tyranny, and violence, it needs to be treated for the real story that it is. This is kind of watering it down and saying it has all been comedy. I don't think it is funny at all. My scars and damages are real. My history is real. Jon has made those choices to do serious damage and harm to me. Jon Stewart's story is real. I know that; I will always know that....... My most complained complaint has always been about my survival and the constant ways I've been violently underestimated, violently and ridiculously tested, have been given terrible expectations, envied, lied about, and losing to what seems the same exact Jon Stewart and most likely Bob D Atri's nigger dominance for what it has been. It all seems the same wigger/ nigger dominance to me. I'm given the same labels, violently raped and underestimated with the same structures, and am expected to beg or fight a violently degrading fight. I AM TOO GOOD FOR ANY AND ALL DOMINANCE FROM THE START. I know I have been really let down, and I hate that they themselves forget just how seriously disappointing they are. I hate them for making me their inferior and expecting me to feel like a loser. I never have and I never will. I hate how desperate people get within jobs. Rather than just doing or being in the job, the story will always change. They will always go too far in a power trip or think it is ok to terribly and arrogantly think they have someone owned in the worst ways. I hate the way people think they have what it takes to manipulate after my life has been the same for this long. People either do or do not like me. People either will or won't treat me as a qualified candidate for whatever job without giving me other terrible threats. People either will or won't treat me as nothing but a 36B statistic. (and of course I KNOW THE DISCRIMINATION HAS ALWAYS BEEN WRONG. Fuck you Rahm for not being perfect or pure enough against prejudice and discrimination. Fuck you for have already letting me down knowing there can only be a certain extent of trust and certain extent where I can respect you in getting real........ How has the job search been going? Personally, I don't even like the look of the new job I applied for and wouldn't even be surprised if I didn't get the job. Looked at a stay at home job. I know it isn't legit because there is only one short paragraph that talks about what the job description actually is and it still isn't detailed enough. He just talks up the number of checks he writes and tries to prove his "legitimacy," with his own bullshit video about making money. He hardly talks about the job itself at all. He even seems to pigeon-hole and intimidate a person of interest, "If you are checking out this website, you are obviously open to a stay at home job." The way he says it, it is like it is a threat of being cornered or numbered to have an interest in a work-at-home job. I know it doesn't even have anything do with my damned living circumstances for what they are right now either. "The Good Wife," ? Still havn't read or watched it. I know neither you nor Jon are dead and gone. Jon will always be the same murderous, slave-laboring, rapist stalker to me. You are someone to continue to guess at for now, until like the rest, your story is the same as Jon's in one way or another. My screams have always been. But, on some occasions when Jon does deny the Tyrant nigger rapist he always has been, I scream more.

The Only Silence I'm Breaking

Is keeping you updated with my truth. I know you have already denied my truth in the worst ways and have damaged me for other women (and men). However, I will always know my truth no matter how much you do or don't lie, twist, rig, and deceive the truth. The answer is still "no," to being subjected to any woman you wish. I am not your or her follower. "Alabama hot tub." No. I have never felt at home with you, I will most likely never feel at home with you. Knowing what your history has been and your predictable expectation of you wanting me to live in lies will never be home. I am still a hobo at heart. You do not have what it takes to make me feel at home.