Merry Christmas

Almost Christmas anyway. If I don't have the time for the computer tmw, Merry Christmas. I am so excited for Mitzi tmw. She was 6 months last year at this time, and from last year and her birthday, she'll get the holiday celebration and I can't wait to see her excitement. Sometimes she fakes excitement with a funny "yay!" but I'll bet she'll be squealing this year. Everything is all ready to go........I am seeing several signs, and the main point is, I don't see who wants to tease me. Is it really Edward? I don't know if it is him. He hasn't called me recently and if this is him "keeping in touch," I'm still not crazy about the communication. With the obvious testing, I'll give some kind of response for his sake. If it is him, I think he is moving too fast. It would bless my heart a little if he was that crazy for me and more for being family minded. Although I liked squeezing his hold and holding each other tightly; I am not going to make such a big choice like that. Maybe he is giving me a hint at something else. don't know..........I really hope Edward calls me soon. I think he may be picking on me a few ways, and I'm not going to take it too seriously for now. Not sure if he is making more violent jabs or not. Maybe it is Tom doing it. Maybe it is both. corny "every rose has its thorns." pft!

As the Sarah Turns

Busy Busy Busy. All of my craft festivals are done. Maybe I will come upon 1 or 2 more winter fests to sell my winter accessories, but I am pretty much done until next season. Still job seeking and waiting for Barilla. Whichever happens, happens. Casino man has not proved whether or not he is a frog or lover yet. Barilla is up in the air. I have a feeling Tom is being an ass right now. There have been a couple of other men I have some sort of openness to, but it all depends on a couple of different things. Something for fun for now or something to find out about. Tom, I can tell you are not an easy man to please. There will always be the complication of knowing I am not an easy woman to please either and it is just this abstract competition. Speaking of, I don't understand why Tom wants me in torment. I would believe he would have other members of arbitrage where him and they don't want to admit whatever there truth is, and would rather just live to torment me with "they always have something to prove in one way or another," and they usually do prove it in the worst way. Tom has surprised me on some occasions. Right now, it is either him or Jim who want to put up some kind of fight for Stacy's sick sake. I really do hate the way Stacy thinks she has a chance with me. Sometimes some men just don't seem to get the womanizers they become. Jim doesn't have a chance with me either. It is Tom that I have been leaving the door open to. Even if Tom was with Stacy, both Jim and Tom need to get YES, I am calling you a nigger, because I know I have never made the action to put my life on the line or given her any chance with me. This is another rig. This is another nigger move to either lie or make it look like I am in self-defeat because I refuse to be challenged. Tom, Jim, Jon you guys can all get ran over for every single "Bow to my Queen," move you make. Jon and Jim are the biggest rapists for the longest time. Tom's advantage is he is new and hasn't put me out of my misery. So what it was a one night stand with Stacy or just another hello goodbye fuck. It is the way you push yourself on me to force me to make someone more equivalent or same level that we will never be. I know Stacy thinks my world revolves around her and even though I hate to include her in my "As the Sarah Turns," blog for the way she is nigger starved, I really need to keep reminding you of the niggers you will always be to me. Maybe Tom is too ignorant with what some of his associations are, but I am becoming more frustrated at the way he will not give up on the way he wants to manipulate or control me. I hate the way someone keeps feeding Stacy or the nigger way she feeds herself that she has what it takes to "make me her conquest."...... Tom, Stacy's will of competitive commitment does not have the power to manipulate me. I would just make more of a joke out of you Tom. Tom, maybe you do want me to flash you again with the way you would threaten my boobs more. I know some several factors have got a reaction out of me this time, but sometimes the Tom Petty threats don't always work. If you want me to flash you, you could always ask in a nice way, or just ask.