Pacing back and forth

Crybaby here I thought it was over yesterday. It still seems to be over but a lot of fog and gray. I feel you want me to be persuaded to you, but I'm wanting to dig my heels in the ground against your pull. I still feel very insulted. I'm still not sure which direction you are going. Some fog and some anorexia to the fog. While you may want to be harmless, you're coming off as scary and not talking enough. You're not straight forward enough. You're not talking enough. It is like you are giving some waves of love and may plan more, but I can't see well enough. I have reason to doubt you. You may have done something against me in the past that you don't want me to know of. Yesterdays guilty by association and some other guilty by associations that I don't know how to make sense of. Can't help but have some want and expectation of loyalty from you. I don't like to feel threatened by the idea of you wanting me to like some people and especially enemies I know I will never like. Me being your cougar? I can see it a little in myself, but it isn't a promise. Kitten boots. While I may have it in me to look down on you and be a little scolding of you, and really, really want you, I just won't have it in me all of the time. It looks like it would be one competitive challenge after another. Challenges where I can't win and be the cry baby I am. I'm just going to shut my cougar mouth coming back because I don't want to describe what I could guess what some of the other challenges could be. I'm too sensitive right now to want to look and guess you more. Both comments should neither be taken in one extreme way or another. Don't let the crybaby go to your head too much and don't let my cougar threats threaten you too much. Are you identifying me in Jon? Man, I really thought you had guessed me. It has been too late for Jon. It is a terrorizing idea to be in a relationship or married to Jon. While being hit by you, you really make everything feel like its too late, but I hate feeling already self-deceived with the way I feel hit by you, because you can't get its too late for Jon too. This is some of the fogginess. You make me feel alone again. Tom, will you please do me a favor if this is a cruel game? Just completely go cold turkey and let go of me. Please don't lead me on anymore.