Dear Yannis

Another letter. While you could have been playing another mindgame with me: "Am I the Ukranian or Russian," I feel swayed and pulled that I'm the Ukranian and you want me to come on to you more. This prison letter was a little delayed; I was in an own pause and block of not quite knowing what to say next... Anyhoo, Sometimes I feel I should make certain copy and paste blog letters. Right now, the Bollywood issue and the way it has always been overlooked and VERY UNSAID on the man's end. I do compare some feelings with Jon Secada's song, "Just Another Day," after sticking with the same Bollywood man for sometime, but it really is a reason I feel damaged. I still feel wanted but I wonder if a man has ever felt the same burned feelings as I do: what is the hold up? (It is terrible and painful when a man ignores signs and words I give, but of course it hurts when they have to let theirself have the dominate hand and will never understand the feeling it is with: what is the hold up? It is a law of my own I can't avoid.You can't keep a woman isolated and alone too long. It's an area I'll feel a victim to a lie, cannibalism, or overpowering gossip or laws the most. I hate the insecurity stab more than anyone and how much more of a poison is in it: trash a room and paint the garbage thrower on my hands. It is a very painful kill I tell you. This is 3 laws you get out of me: 1. don't let anyone else touch me. 2. Don't blame me when I do have natural and my own sense of reason insecurity. 3. I think I meant it be law 2 but I forget the other law I was going to say.... Yannis, you've been in my mind often the in the past week or two and it is something I will let you know. I just may not be up to the game you want me to be up to and it wouldn't be fair to me if you led yourself on in a way then get mad at me or make me feel like I've had to pay the bigger price because you could want to make it cost my reputation, stability, or strength all the more. Your profile: A very hot mid 30s rockstar. Right now, I don't entirely mind your comeon's although I question how much of a gunshot you could have meant to put in me. You seem to deny a will to wound. law law law, just because just because just because I want you, doesn't mean you shouldn't watch it with your own come ons. I hope your not the type that uses or holds a woman's sex against herself like that.....

Dear Yannis

I might eventually muster posting this blog to your twitter but I just feel the isolation where I can only speak out loud in a cage like you are listening anyway. Not officially face to face. That's right, it is a different game and you don't fool me foal. ~wink~ So, it is like you want to draw a circle to my face. It isn't I that wants to damn myself to the title of a one-night-stand. If I were to hunt you or go wild on you, my mission is that it is to hunt your law law law rules rules rules. I could see myself hawking the laws to your actions and going into detail with one thing or another in mockery, disrespect, or heckling you like you don't get what you somewhat initially do. If we are to be a child about it, "Then why do you bother?!" I'm just not my damnation or law forcer is what I'm trying to say. I do think you have a very nice intensity in the "In Degrees" song. I heard a song on the radio today that reminded me of one common dogma I have with the song "Hard Time," by Seinabo Sey. I don't feel the intensity to the song with you with the "In Degrees" song in particular and don't intend to cause confusion. It's not that I don't find myself with no potential to those intense feelings. I wasn't going to assume much to happen with you, and with any man, it's not the best feeling to feel such an intense rejection with your own degree of having to have it YOUR WAY. You are a song of a minion. A man who wasn't the cause but has the most of a clue. I feel isolated but not alone.... I don't mean to jab your ego when I say you aren't the cause to the emotion. You are an attractive stranger who still has some mystery. I don't understand why you would just keep drawing a circle. If that's the picture you mean to make of yourself, I bounce ON YOU back with a making fun of you "law law law law."