Succumb to the Hockey Man

Right now, I wish I could be more secretive, quiet, and hush hush. The way I feel you come across me feels intimidatingly and dominatingly dirty, romantic, and lustful. I feel a death I don't know how to define. I feel very wanted and have some fight in not wanting to be too much of a fool. I think you want some kind of revenge because I'm just not hush hush enough. I feel speechless and left without any kind of option or choice more than anything, but I try to find words to say while I feel a painless and pleasant death I don't know how to define. I'm trying to make myself say something but don't know what to say.........