Hi Jon

I'm coming around in an unusual way this time. I know it has been a long time since I've talked to you or had anything nice to say to you. It has been a real long time. I notice you still keep me included in your life for some reason. You've always had an occasional knock. Sometimes, constant. I still haven't watched one of your shows for a long time either. I still don't want to. Although I am having an unusual conversation with you, I still give myself the credit of keeping you in the cold. I do believe I have the potential to be murdered by you too in a very literal way. There is something else I believe to whether it is meant to be good or bad: You need my company. There are still things I will either ignore or write you off with, but I'll give whatever company I can give...... I still get upset with what the living situation is with Mitzi. Besides the living situation is every day life which has its ups and downs. We can laugh and cuddle, and she can make messes, intentionally make more messes, and has her own spoiled fits to throw. I'm still not talking to anyone in my family, and still don't have friends, and I'm sure you know this. I'm sure you know a lot of factors about me being the hunter you are. Most factors have never been in favor towards me, but I'm not going to get into all of that either right now. Our dog Frank died a morbid death last year. Something tells me it wasn't a freak accident and someone did intentionally kill him. I was expressionless of course. I don't know who killed Frank, but it was nice of someone to just kill him. .... I can tell you think something of me stripping. I don't know what you think yet, and, I really don't care to know what you think of it right now. I still have some more craft festivals I plan on doing once again this year. And, I might even have a better chance to do one or two marathons. I hope I make a lot of money this summer with both jobs, and maybe I'll have more luck in stripping when the school season comes back around. I wonder what some random people are really thinking of your associations and inclusiveness. Before Dolly sent the "Minosaur," book, I did have a clue along the lines of the possessive type of man you are. There really was one time where your lonesomeness killed me on the inside; I just refused to let myself be suckered back in to you. I had a real sorrow, but I just couldn't let up for you. I still hate you and think low of you. I'm going to just have a fickle heart sometimes where I can't handle the way you feel alone and the way I leave you out in the cold. Don't you dare get egocentric for the sake of Katie or that I may fear Katie. I'm being sincere with my fickle heart, and that this is just about you and that I know you sometimes need my company. I may not always be around or there, but I'll try to talk to you sometimes or give you company.