He just wants me Muah!

Forget the Super Bowl, forget everything, it is time for another episode of "As the Sarah Turns." .............. I really don't know how I sometimes end up as such a center of attention the ways I do sometimes...... I have yet to see an episode of "The New Girl," but I think I will make myself watch it tonight if I can write this blog in enough time. I'm sure it will be running on a website if I miss it. ......... Man Drama. Right now, my instincts are telling me it is the heart Dr. who wants me. He really kept me guessing. I think Jon and Steve are being gay. If my guess is off and is not the heart Dr., and it is Jon, like I can't afford to reject or possibly even hurt him for myself. Sometimes, I question just how numb he is to my rejection....... Heart Dr. Mike aka "Dr. MH" He really kept me guessing. I saw some of the games that were going on with him. Despite some other things, it looked like he was cheering for me. Although I have not yet expected $$$ for setting up his appointment with me, he did threaten me with "he could be the prostitute." I kept quiet about things going on most of the game, knowing I would be writing a blog later. The next threat wasn't a threat. It was the friendly gesture and cheer with Fergie's "Pump it." But then, there was the gay man threat after that. And besides the threat of him being gay, was the threat of seeing me as the man. A continued structured and socialized punishment/slander towards and against me of being a transvestite, because how dare I not succumb to Tom Petty's Mary Jane song and be limp and damn my dancing or having a continued strong will to live. I don't care to pussyfoot about transvestites or fear the structured labels anymore. I simply feel uncomfortable around bisexual men and bisexual men who want to visualize and sexually attract me as a man. Yes, it is way too perverted and degrading. Too insultingly X-rated. TURNS OUT THOUGH, Dr. MH has other "whispering" sweetness in my ear. Although degradation like that has happened before, he doesn't mean it in the extreme way, and he really was giving shared smiles in a very friendly way. He simply just wants me. He wants me. So, I let him win. I don't know if he is actually going to approach me in person, or if anything will ever come of it, but I let him win. I did take note of the Bronco's player too. I'm not sure what exactly I should know about him. (I did initially pick the Bronco's team to root for.) (A lot of confusing signals and sometimes wondering who was really who.) I loved the half-time show. I've like Bruno Mars music for while. When I get my I-Tunes up and running again, I will eventually download some of his music. I wonder if Anthony Keidis really has his own personal rock-look, but I question if there is someone else he is supposed to look like?